“No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.”
— Hebrews 12:11 (NIV)
I have to relearn a lot of things.
I’ve taken my anger out on the wrong people and mistaken foolish behavior as how the world works.
I’ve seen generosity used as manipulation.
I’ve seen good deeds with strings attached.
I have to re-learn how to be an adult and how I think of others.
I didn’t know compassion could replace anger.
I’m having a hard time processing that you can feel sadness for those who harm you — not because you’re weak, but because God is trying to teach them something through your endurance. That’s heavy.
I’m getting used to the fact that you don’t have to prove yourself to people who believe lies about you.
You don’t have to explain your heart to someone who’s already made up their mind.
When your life is full of deception and the Lord comes in to turn darkness into His righteousness — it hurts.
A part of you is dying.
Not the part that people admired — but the part that kept you numb.
That brought you comfort and familiarity.
But that part’s got to go if God is going to take over.
And He will take over — if you let Him.
If your mind isn’t calm when thinking about something, it’s hard for God to work with you.
When you have to over-explain or over-extend yourself to be accepted, something is seriously wrong.
You’re not being your authentic self.
When God works through you, very few words are needed.