On the burner — some projects closer than others. It’s a never-ending process, the constant evolution of my craft.

The shop has been touch and go. Eventually it’ll be up and stay up. It took a minute to figure out where that kind of merch actually fits into the bigger picture, and how I want to sell it without it feeling forced or hollow. For now, I’ve been doing short sticker-bomb runs with the Strum Life logo — getting the name out on the streets the old-school way.

Soon, I’ll be more aggressive — both on the ground and online — about pushing the brand forward.

At the same time, I’ve been deep in recording future releases and writing a lot. A lot. About the stretch of time when life went off the rails with drugs and alcohol, and how it slowly found its way to where it is now. That space in between mattered more than I realized.

I’ve also been paying attention — watching creators who didn’t just fix their lives, but learned how to translate their scars into something real, something they could stand behind and build from.

So sit tight.
Keep checking back.

It’s going to get good.

Hi Blog,
I haven’t forgotten about you. Honestly, it’s been getting under my skin that we don’t talk like we used to. Come to think of it, I don’t talk to a lot of people like I used to.

Life’s been heavy — but in a good way. Jesus has brought me through some dark times, and lately I’ve been thinking a lot about how to show my love for Him and His Father. That’s been the center of everything.

I’ve been playing a lot of guitar, recording more than usual, trying to capture every spark while I can. Content is the new currency, and I’m stacking up what I’ve got — not out of fear, but out of faith that it’s all building toward something real.

I’m heading back to work at the airport soon. I kind of missed it, even while I was taking care of things. It feels like another piece of life is falling back into place.

Anyhow, things are looking up.
What have you been up to?
Yeah, you — I’m still listening.

In today’s world, being “smart” is treated like the ultimate badge of honor. Good grades, big words, technical know-how — that’s what people think will carry them to success. But here’s the truth: being smart doesn’t make you clever. And if you want to thrive — in business, in trading, in life — clever will take you further than smart ever will.

The Difference Between Smart and Clever

Smart is about knowledge. You can crunch numbers, memorize facts, and cite statistics. Smart knows the book cover to cover.

Clever is about application. It’s knowing how to use that knowledge in the real world, especially when the rules aren’t written down. Clever sees the gaps, spots the tells, and turns situations to advantage.

Think of it like this: smart people know how the game should be played. Clever people know how the game is actually played.

Why Smart Alone Gets Trapped

Markets, jobs, relationships — they’re all full of traps. Just because you know the numbers doesn’t mean you know the hustle. A “smart” trader can read charts all day, but if they fall for every headline and panic tweet, they get washed out like anyone else.

Being clever is what keeps you alive in the gray areas. It’s what helps you spot the mismatched numbers, the shady intentions, the propaganda designed to push you one way so someone else can cash out the other.

The Power of Clever

Clever is watching what people do, not just what they say. It’s studying mannerisms, tones, timing. It’s noticing when the hype doesn’t match the math. Clever doesn’t get dazzled by “what everyone knows.” Clever walks the opposite way when the herd stampedes — and finds opportunities no one else sees.

The Balance

Now, don’t get it twisted. Being clever without smarts is just winging it — and that won’t take you far either. The real edge comes when you mix both:

Smart enough to understand the rules.

Clever enough to know when to bend or break them.

That’s how winners are made.

"Wake up and get out," said the voice.

Of all the years I’ve done stupid shit, that one caught me off guard. I was surprised — but deep down, it still felt like another new low. “Give me a few minutes to get my shit,” I told him. What hurt the most, looking back, is that this guy and I were on good terms. That couldn’t have been easy for him to do.

I grabbed my guitar and three bags filled with whatever was left of my life.

I don’t remember leaving the hotel I was staying at. What I do remember is standing at the top of the brick staircase, losing my balance, and putting my hand out to catch myself. Instead, I broke my left wrist in three places.

My head hit the pavement. I blacked out. Then I came to.

There was a guy standing over me — thick accent, real presence. “You okay? I saw everything.” I rolled to my back. “Can you call for help?” I asked. “I did,” he said, “but they ain't coming.”

He stuck around anyway. We talked about a bunch of things I don’t even remember. He offered me a Vicodin. I gave him ten bucks and said, “Yeah, man. Thanks.” That’s where I was at.

Eventually, the ambulance showed up. I was wiggling to help them move me to the stretcher when one of the paramedics looked into my eyes and froze. “Don’t move,” he said. “Your pupils aren’t matching. Looks like you’ve got a concussion.”

Next thing I know, they’re in the ambulance telling me they need to cut my clothes off. I begged them not to — my favorite t-shirt, a thin hoodie that my close friends got me for Christmas. “We don’t have a choice,” one of them said. “We don’t know what else is wrong with you.”

They cut them off.

I woke up in Highland Hospital — Oakland’s battlefield ER. It's the kind of place that police and firefighters specify in their contracts: “If I get shot, take me to Highland.” These doctors know trauma. They’ve seen more bullet wounds than textbooks.

While I was there, a nurse came in to stick a needle in my hand. I begged her not to. I hate needles — especially in the top of my hand. She told me there was no other way. It brought back memories of childhood surgeries, of begging doctors not to poke me there.

They gave me fentanyl.

I didn’t enjoy it, but it was bizarre. Not what I expected. Just… strange.

Then Barbara came in.

“Hi, I’m Barbara, and I’m here to reset your arm.”

At that point, she could’ve shoved a gorilla up my ass and I wouldn’t have cared. I was so high. They hoisted my broken arm onto some contraption above my bed. “Okay,” Barbara and her assistant said, “here we go.”

They moved it three or four times. I screamed. Even on fentanyl, I was losing it. The pain was inhuman. When it was done, I felt a little better — physically.

The doctor came in. “You smashed your wrist in three places,” he said.

I wasn’t even thinking about guitar.

All I could think was: Where the fuck am I going to live now?

They didn’t operate. They stitched me up and sent me to a place in Oakland that used to be a hotel. Now it was low-income housing for people with medical conditions.

I stayed there three weeks. Then I went to rehab……………again.

A New Relationship with Recovery
by Mike Glendinning

I feel like I have a new relationship with recovery.

I’ve spent the last 20 years going in and out of rehab centers. I’ve had long stretches of sobriety, and I’ve had blackout moments that could fill a book. For a long time, when I wasn’t drinking, I missed it. I missed the parties. I missed the bar talk, the laughter, the chaos that felt like connection. But what I never remembered was the craving—the desperation that came before that first drink.

And once I started drinking again?

I missed being sober.

It took me all these years to realize I don’t drink like a normal person. I’ve seen normal people have half a beer, put it down, and not touch another one for two years. Me? I get one sip, and I’m already on the edge of the next run.

Some people waste a weekend. I’ll waste a whole damn month… if I’m lucky.

Alcohol to me is like being in a relationship with a crazy ex you know is bad for you. Yeah, you remember the wild nights, the good laughs, the stories. But you also start to remember the screaming, the manipulation, the blackout calls that had nothing to do with you but made you feel like shit anyway. That’s alcohol. It seduces, then destroys.

And when I really think about it—drinking never gave me anything good. Not a thing.
Sober? I’ve got music. Connection. Sanity. Faith. Purpose.
There’s no contest.

Right now, I’m in a room in Oakland, in a sober living house. The window’s open. Outside, people are partying—or at least trying to. Smoking weed, meth, drinking all day like it’s freedom. From up here, it looks like they’re having the time of their lives. But I know what that illusion really costs.

I look down and see the Store Club—a place I used to play. A place I have memories in. Oakland is full of those for me. The fake beauty of addiction, and the hard truth of where it always ends up.

And still… I love this city.
Because this is where I found out who I really fucking am.

Looking back, I don’t think I wasted my life.
I think this was all part of God’s plan.
The drinking. The losing. The trying.
The falling again.
The praying.
The surrender.

Will I drink again?

I sure the fuck hope not.

Fourth of July in Oakland: When Fireworks and Reality Blur
Let me tell you something: the Fourth of July in Oakland, California? It’s not your average neighborhood barbecue and sparkler affair. It's… something else entirely.
I got a taste of the prelude to the madness on July 5th, 2023, at the ungodly hour of 5:30 AM. There I was, waiting for the party bus to the Oakland Airport for my 7 AM shift. Even at that early hour, Broadway was already playing host to the usual cast of characters – folks panhandling, others in their own world having conversations with thin air.
Then, out of nowhere, a fleet of police SUVs came tearing down northbound Broadway. Now, seeing that many police vehicles speeding anywhere in Oakland at that time is unusual, but this felt different. They screeched to a halt about five blocks down. A moment later, the unmistakable sound of rapid-fire explosions filled the air: boom boom boom boom.
My brain immediately jumped to the worst-case scenario: a shootout. Instinctively, I dove for cover in a nearby storefront doorway. Peeking out, I saw someone casually sitting at the bus stop. “Hey! Get over here!” I yelled, urging them to take cover before they got caught in the crossfire. They didn’t even flinch. Ignored me completely.
As the noise subsided, I cautiously looked towards the source of the commotion. Turns out, it wasn’t gunfire at all. Just some joker lighting off a whole pack of firecrackers. A jarring wake-up call, to say the least.
Fast forward to the evening of July 4th, 2024. I was visiting my son in Albany, maybe six miles or so from my place in downtown Oakland. As the sun began to dip, a sense of urgency washed over me. I needed to get back to my apartment before nightfall. I just knew things were about to get wild.
Hopping on the bus, I was greeted by a bus driver who looked like he’d seen a ghost. Great, whatever was coming was already setting in.
Even though it was still light out when I got off the bus, the “festivities,” as some might call them, had already begun. The distinct crackle of gunfire started echoing between the city buildings. Then came the heavy artillery – the bright flashes and chest-thumping booms of M1000s being lit off with increasing frequency. By 8 PM, it sounded like a full-blown war zone had erupted.
The sheer volume of explosions was disorienting. It became impossible to distinguish between the powerful fireworks and actual gunfire. I finally managed to fall asleep around 10 PM, the relentless explosions still shaking the air. I woke up at 2 AM for a bathroom break, and unbelievably, the explosions were still going strong. Just as I was drifting back to sleep, a blessed silence descended. The stereo sound of chaos had finally stopped.
And then, just as sleep was about to claim me, it all started again.
The Fourth of July and New Year’s Eve in Oakland and nearby Richmond are legendary for this kind of… unrestrained celebration. There’s even a persistent rumor that you won’t see a single police officer patrolling the streets during this time. I’ve heard whispers from “inside sources” that they all huddle under overpasses, trying to avoid stray bullets flying through the air. Think about that for a second: the cops are hiding. Maybe the rest of us should be too.
It’s a unique kind of Independence Day in Oakland, where the lines between celebratory explosions and something far more dangerous become terrifyingly blurred. You just hunker down and hope the night passes without any stray fire – of any kind – finding its way to you.